HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY :)

I knew you'll hate me one day.
You said you gave it all, you sure you did?
It's always like a routine for me.

A week.

Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday.
x :) x x x x ':)'

example.

when we're together physically, I'm happy. :) real happy.
when it's time to go, 'till the next meeting all are shits.
messed up life, hurtful words, pathetic lies, what else?
I never thought of giving up because I've to wait.
ok? I'm selfish TYVM.
I'd never see my flaws, I'd never see my mistake.
even if I knew, I changed, did you?

我需要时间， 我知道，我放得下。

maybe I'm not good enough,
I'm not pretty enough.
I'm not smart enough.
I'm not hardworking enough.
I'm not cute enough.
I'm not as short to be as cute.
I can't sing?
I've lip piercing like ahlianz?
I'm not as a good girl like her?
I use vulgarities?
I've retained once in Secondary School?
I've bad records?
I don't have any certificate qualifications YET.

forget 'bout it. I hate you.
fuck my life, seriously.


- Today..
l4d2 again lo.
he made a move again.
scare dai me. seriously omg.
I think it's a he HEHE.
if it's a female = GG.
I hope he/she doesn't haunt me while I sleep tonight,
I'm alone :)